Monday, November 3, 2014

Nobody's gonna read this anyway, what an odd title.

Exactly 2 years since my last post, well, not exactly, CLOSE.

I wouldn't dare to say that I am a lot more busier than before, I am but actually, if I had the will to continue blogging, I would not have stopped.

Because I became less reflective. So E.R isn't really E.R anymore, I can't live up to it, so it's one of the reasons I quit.

I became more preoccupied with Instagram and other social medias. More of Instagram actually, because I have two accounts. My mum once told me that she foresaw me becoming a very vain person. Yes, she's right. My two other brothers update their Instagram like 3 weeks once, I'm like 3 posts in a week. So if two Instagrams, that would mean 6 posts a week. Gedik sia.

I became more ashamed of myself. Not being a person of good conduct, not becoming what people expect a 'Pastor's son' should be, not performing well academically, plus all the little little sins I commit and omit in my daily life. However recently I was reminded of the efficacy of Jesus' blood on the cross, so I shouldn't feel ashamed of myself anymore. He has taken the guilt and shame and nailed all of them on the cross. Do not consider anything unclean what God has considered it clean. So it was Revelation to me, and I'm blown away by His grace.

I blog, but in a mobile blogging app called Dayre. Lynthia introduced that me, I was hesitant because I really lost the drive to write but after countless persuasions, I officially came back to blogging like 6 months ago. And through that, some of them got to dig out who my crush is, and they succeeded. So not a very good idea also. -.-

Talking about Instagram. The reason why I have two accounts is because I love to play my keyboard and sing, but it would be terribly annoying when your friends supposed to read your posts about your daily life, you know, people just want to get to know how you're doing and stuffs but all they see is a dumbo syok sendiri singing. So I created the singing account called edsings last October. So it has been a year with 295 followers plus minus 5. (I always get unfollowers too lol) YAY.

I wanted to get connected with the other Instagram singers through their #15secondcovers. And boy the talent you get to see is just overwhelming. Amazing, AMAZING talents. From beat boxing to rapping to Ed Sheeran kind of voice to bluegrass country singers. And they are all NOT professional singers, they are somewhat like me, ordinary people 'unsigned artists'.

And in my another account, I used to post lots of horrible selfies two years back. I still do now, but in a more professional way, #ootd, LOL.

The reason why I loved to post selfies back then was because I got influenced by the Korean culture. I was a crazy fan of Korean dramas and a little bit of Kpop. So from there I was so mesmerized by their hair and skin, omgoodness, those flawless skin we see in The Face Shop! So I would try to copy certain Korean actors selfie and try to fool others to think that I look Korean. Jobless right?

My gosh, boy was I gedik to the max! But still I got comments that I look like JoKwon from 2am. But wasn't really flattered lo, because I wanted something like Song Joong Ki or Yoo Ah In. Bagi betis nak paha.

Thank God that Korean craze did not last very long. I was back to myself again last year I guess. No more selfie kosong (meaningless selfies), and that's why I came up with #ootd to at least be a little informative. Besides that, am a die hard fan for fragrance. I have 8 Eau de Toilette now, in which 3 of them did not come out from my pocket. So siao right? But I just love the smell! Can't help it!

Oh, the time! It's already almost 11pm and I actually planned to read the topic on Indices today. And exam's on this Friday!

Please please please please Lord help me do well this time!!!

And here's a cover I favourited berzillion times because I follow him on Instagram. Crazily talented and a faithful believer of the Lord. Josh Bation with his girlfriend, oh my so sweeeeeeet. I hope I can post a duet cover with my (___________). Lord please fill in the blank for me! *desperado*

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Whining about 2nd year.

Hey people! It's nice coming back to blogging after another long hiatus (not that long actually). However, unfortunately, this time I can't afford to blog something happy like how I used to.

2nd year for now is gradually becoming worse for me. Though it looks like there's not as much stuffs to study as compared to 1st year, the truth is, it's almost the same. The difference is that the topics are terribly boring and as a result of that, I hardly open up the textbook and jot down crucial points. Even if I did, I'll go "What did I just study?". So many terms are so foreign to me, lecturers jumping from one topic to another, I'm terribly confused.

Coming to practicals, I'm still fine with pre-clinical Prosthodontics and Conservative Dentistry. But the most frustrating and disappointing practical would have to be Orthodontics. Wire straightening... I just can't get it right. I tried bending at home, using the various methods suggested by friends and post-graduates. When the wires started to roll, I would jump from my seat and grinning from ear to ear. But when they are being showed to the PGs, they would press one end of the wire and the other end rose up a little, after that they would give me the look "So you call this straight?" (in which I always feel that their remarks are ludicrous but actually they aren't). This is not just once or twice. It's already a norm. It happens every single time I show the wires to them. And when I tried to correct the little "flaws" they asked me to do, I would distort the whole wire and yea, cool, the wire's gay again, terribly gay.

In retrospection, I remembered how I used to tell my mum that I wanna be a Orthodontist when I have the chance to further my studies. Hmm, before it becomes a detestable subject, I better focus on just becoming a  general dental practitioner. Diligent efforts on this wire straightening thing was like, I don't know, have gone down the drain? My fingers ache, plus the cuts I used to get in Prosthodontics and Dental Materials Practicals, added in more pain whenever I try bending certain wire parts with more force (you know, that sharp piercing feeling when the sharp end of the wire pierces your delicate fingers).

How funny life could bring you, you love that thing, and then that thing instils hatred upon you. This Orthodontics is leaving me nothing but two choices. Either you want to straighten the wire, or you want to play the keyboard with ease. Ortho, why do you have to make me make such a cruel choice? I used to be a jocular in Ortho, but Ortho, you are indeed formidable.

And now, I just wanna lie down on my cosy bed and let my swollen fingers heal.

Monday, September 10, 2012

2nd Year.

Oh my I tell you second year is HECTIC... Not referring to the studying part, but the practicals.... and more practicals. This year, I have 5 exam going subjects, 2 pre-clinical subjects - Prosthodontics & Conservative Dentistry (Conso) and 3 theory+practical subjects - Pharmacology, Pathology & Microbiology and Dental Materials. Tight schedule. Everyday except Sundays my classes will either start at 8am or 8.30am and end by 4-4.30pm, with a 1.5 hour lunch break in between. Haih... what to do, I guess I just have to develop the interest and "suffer" for this whole year. Hopefully I can do my very best for my sessionals and then the final exam!

Nevertheless, in every circumstance, praise God. Praise Him for the good and bad. Praise Him for His protection over me during this monsoon season. I'm currently staying in a flat which is situated quite close to my dental college. And there's this slope, relatively steep, and the worst thing is it's infected with algae (though it was cleaned over and over again, but mann this slope is really "fertile"). So once it rains (In India when it rains it's like Noah's Ark story, it never ceases to pour till the very next day), the road will be slippery and some of my friends have slipped before. However thank God, for these 2 months He kept me safe, so far no mishaps haha. Hopefully I will not by any chance slip because it's painful, disgustingly slimy and embarrassing.

The starting of 2nd year has changed so much of my lifestyles and habits I've picked up all these years. I've started to pay bills and buy my own groceries. I've started to learn how to cook basic dishes from frying an egg to boiling soup and frying chicken. I've decided to be in the worship team and will be playing the keyboard next week (pray for me!!!). I've grown a little bit horizontally, THANK GOD. I've learned how to set teeth, bend orthodontic wires, making impressions (hate this one) and lots more to come! As for the negative ones.... I've become lazier (because there's not as much to study as 1st year yet). I sleep in class, if not, lots of yawning and tearing.  I've become more gedik (that's what people say, in which I beg to differ) Hmm... that's about it!

Would love to post some pictures of the dental stuffs I've done but I left it all in my locker in the college's locker room. Will do it one day.

I do sound a little pathetic right? Not really exactly, thanks to my irritating batchmates and the amazing cell group friends. They've cheered me up so much. Went for trips, open houses, birthday parties, life's not that sad after all!!!!

John MacArthur, John MacArthur, where can I find a preacher like you? If only you sound more Malaysian, LOL.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

The Spirit of Transformation

“But we all, with unveiled face beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit.” - 2 Corinthians 3:18
The Holy Spirit’s transforming work is a central part of the believer’s sanctification.
The children’s fable The Ugly Duckling wonderfully illustrates the Holy Spirit’s transforming work in believers. The story is about an ugly young bird who can’t fit in with any of the other animals. It’s not until he encounters the beautiful swans that his life starts changing. The swans are an irresistible attraction for the duckling, something he can’t forget after they leave for the winter. Finally he makes the amazing discovery the following spring that in spite of his feelings of inferiority, he is not a duck but a swan, just like those creatures he has admired.
The days immediately following our conversion to Christ are often similar to the ugly duckling’s final experiences. We have a great sense of sinful unworthiness and yet a powerful attraction to Jesus Christ. We respond that way because we now know that character-wise He represents all we were created to be. And we soon come to realize that it’s both a humbling and exciting process to be transformed into Christ’s image.
Today’s Scripture, my favorite verse, is an excellent short description of the Spirit’s transforming work. We won’t see the glory of the Lord perfectly right away, but we begin to see it with greater clarity once we know Jesus Christ by faith.
Paul is referring to our basic sanctification, which is a progressive process by which the Spirit changes us from one level of Christlikeness to another. The end result will be our glorified position in Heaven, which is the Holy Spirit’s goal for us and the reason for our hope. The Spirit reveals what we will be in Christ: “Beloved, now we are children of God, and it has not appeared as yet what we shall be. We know that, when He appears, we shall be like Him, because we shall see Him just as He is” (1 John 3:2).


Sunday, September 2, 2012

What about the Holy Spirit?

“The one who keeps His commandments abides in Him, and He in him. And we know by this that He abides in us, by the Spirit which He has given us.” - 1 John 3:24
Because the Holy Spirit affects every area of the Christian life, it is vital that we have a balanced and correct view of His role.
The church’s understanding of the Spirit’s Person and ministry has been seriously distorted over the past few decades. Charismatics have given an undue emphasis to certain pentecostal gifts so that subjective experience is often elevated over objective scriptural truth.
At the same time, many non-charismatics have overreacted to charismatic excesses by almost ignoring the Holy Spirit. For most, an in-depth study of the Spirit does not fit with the pragmatic, psychological approach to solving spiritual problems.
But we can’t afford to go to either extreme; otherwise we’ll miss out on what it really means to know the Spirit and to minister by His power. He is indispensable in saving us, enabling us to obey Jesus Christ, and ultimately perfecting us in glory. Paul urged the Galatian believers not to abandon the Holy Spirit but to lean completely on Him. “Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh?” (Gal. 3:3).
Too many Christians are wasting time looking to seminars, gimmicks, counselors, and novel interpretations of old truths to uncover “the secret” to the abundant Christian life. But the key to such living is not a mystery or a secret. The sufficiency of the Holy Spirit’s ministry, as revealed through the pages of God’s fully reliable Word, is all the information and resources we’ll ever need to live fruitful and prosperous spiritual lives.
In today’s verse, the apostle John is speaking of Christ’s indwelling presence in the believer’s life, which the Holy Spirit reveals to us. Therefore the Spirit is working with the Lord Jesus in encouraging you, guiding you, enlightening you, and empowering you for every good work (see John 14:162016:13). By understanding the Spirit’s role and allowing Him to work in you daily, you’ll begin to see your life becoming more like Christ each day.

Thursday, July 5, 2012


Yesterday I got my results. And praise the Lord, I passed my first year BDS with distinction. And congratulations to all my other MCDOS mates, you all did well too!

Becoming lazier in blogging, well, as you grow up you tend to be busier, no doubt about that.

For now just let me savour every second of my break here in Malaysia.

Partey now! Sexy, free and single. Yes, I am.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Post 3rd sessionals bliss?A bit la...

After our Physiology Viva on Wednesday, some of us decided to hop into an ice-cream shop to get some chills.

I wasn't fully recovered then. But still I went,hahaha. And I paid the price.

Lesson learned again but definitely no regrets. The ice-creams weren't that GREAT but I managed to snap a few shots of it. Without further crapping, let's roll the PICCHAS!!!



Choconut, if I'm not mistaken.

Chocolate Milk Shake, this was how I got my loose motions.

Milkshake not nice. Thumbs down.


Lastly, some chocolate chips from my milkshake. Looks disgusting right? Everybody said that.

So that's all. Good day everyone.