Thursday, February 16, 2017

How it all started // From the bf's perspective

So the gf wrote about her side of the story of how it all started.

Now the story shall be retold to you on my account.

Well, I am not an eloquent speaker, what more a good writer. But I know, my side of the story will be much shorter, maybe because I can't really describe those moments, how I felt. Or maybe I don't overthink like her, or most girls. Oopsie hehehe. 

I guess I can only describe my feelings as the usual happy, sad, excited, angry. But Rae being the more expressive one, and without a doubt the more English one, gives her the extra edge to dramatize those feelings. Okay win liao loh!

Ok, sometime in November 2014, I decided enough is enough. Enough of being creepy, stalking her in social media, giving her subtle hints like hey girl am I your type cause you're totally my cup of tea, through tweets and comments on ig and blog posts.

Started noticing her in early 2014, when my parents gave me the green light to date a girl. Though I wasn't really interested in 'relationshits', but why this girl keeps posting awesome piano covers, and why she became so slim and why the hair suddenly so long and not frizzy like last time. And why she knows how to put make up already like finally puberty hit her hard! Then I started noticing her tweets, can be really funny, and made use of it to korek from her some things. Things that could be essential for me to decide whether she's the one. So the feeling went on for many months, I guess I really fell for this girl.

I heard she's getting close with another guy from her batch who is (or should I say was, now?) much better looking and of course much to the power of 100 taller. In the back of my mind I was like it can't be cause he's so cina, but at the same time her poses on ig were quite cina also, like the peace sign that I cannot tahan. So it's possible she may stoop to his level, or maybe she just see handsome face and nothing else. Like so shallow hoh, tsk tsk tsk. *Shakes head*

So it was midnight (somewhere between 1 to 2am), I mustered up all my courage and wrote her a super long confession message, cause I needed to get that out of my chest. Back then, I didn't have her number so that means can't call can't message. Only option was Facebook Messenger. So, thank God for FB Messenger, up till this day!

Clicked send. That was it. I thought that was the end. I broke down. I thought it was such a silly thing to do. I mean, we hardly talked in college. After that, lost touch for years and then suddenly hey I want to know you more? If I were the girl I would be shit scared of this person.

The next morning, I woke up, I didn't want to even take a glimpse of my phone. But then I had to right? Just face the truth. Man up. To my surprise, she replied me! And what's more, she gave me her mum's number!!! That's how I got to know how blur she can be at times. She apologized and gave me her number. That put a smile on my face, the whole day I remember!!!

So that whole day, in contrary to her experience, I was on cloud nine. While she was confused, and a little freaked out I'm sure!

I didn't ask her to be my gf right away, because it would seem insincere. I don't believe in love at first sight. Maybe crush at first sight. But love begins when you truly know someone. I wanted to know her, so that I can value her, for who she is.

21st Feb 2015, I asked her to be my gf. It was funny because she said 'You didn't ask me also?' But now I interpret that as 'I am so readyyy already la, but I paiseh to ask you so now only you ask, I wait until my bones resorb dy ah!' Hahah I know she would totally deny this but whatever.

From then on, we walk life together, despite being at two different places, yet we find comfort in each other. Yes, certainly God was behind the scenes. On how it all started, even before we met in KTT,  and right now, close to two years. He has been faithful and will be till the end.

Rae, Happy Valentine's and Happy 2 year anniversary! I will always love you, and learn to love you better each day.

Okay, that wasn't really short after all. Omo, I can be a writer!!!!

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

KKIA

Forgot to post this about my day in KKIA last week cause I didn't save the 2nd half of my post and there's no post recovery in blogspot so I was lazy to write all over again. But here we go, just wrote a little and I'm going to post it.

Since I got nothing to do here in KKIA, might as well just spew some nonsense on blogspot.

KKIA = Klinik Ibu dan Anak

Because our clinic has to reach its KPI, which is some target for this year, our clinic has to come to KKIA everyday,  except Fridays just so we can somehow get to do dental check up on pregnant ladies.

So what we do here in KKIA is to do a gross screening and charting for the patients' teeth and assess their overall oral health, then advise them on how to take care of the teeth and gums. Sounds simple, right? Try to say all these in BM or Mandarin and see la. Confirm gagap.

Anyway, I only managed to do check up on ONE patient. Just one throughout the whole 3 loooong hours which seemed forever. And that took me 5 minutes. So the remaining 2 hours plus I was listening to the PPK talking about her life her work her children other ppls husband and children and anything an aunty would gossip about. I know it all.

But she touched the topic on UTC and that sparked my interest. It seems that UTC is the dumping ground for unwanted dentists, nurses and dsas. So if you don't perform, the YM may send your name to the nearest UTC and congrats, you officially work 7 days a week, either morning or night shift, till 10pm. Oh no thankss reallyyy. So must really perform and show that I don't deserve UTC. T_T But I feel so inadequate in the midst of the local grad NDOPs, they seem to know a lot of things.

Whatever it is, I dread coming to KKIA each time. Cause it's always one dental officer and the same old assistant. Everyday listen to her stories can be quite sien sometimes you know.

Don't know when's the next KKIA visit, hopefully there'll be a lot of patients, rather than just sitting in the pantry doing unproductive things. If not, let me run to 7 eleven next door to chill hahaha.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Reunion with Primary School Mates

Nothing beats a reunion after 14 years.

Since no one really understood what I was trying to say in my fb post, let me explain it thoroughly to you.

What I meant was we were so busy living our own lives for the past 14 years that we failed to take time and recall back those good memories we had as school mates. So fast forward to the present, we finally had the time to look back at the past together, besides getting updated with each others' lives.

One thing about fb or social media nowadays is everything has to be short and sweet. Captions, messages have to be brief and clear. So I was trying to jaga my word count hence the confusion? Hahaha. Sad life of a CS boy. We can't write short essays.

Nevertheless, it was a productive meet up I must say. Life's good. Thank God for the opportunity.

Tomorrow's work day again! Lazy but excited at the same time, because I can't wait to earn my salary!

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

To my Rae of Sunshine

It's my girl's birthday today!

This is my 2nd year celebrating her birthday as a couple. And it is also my 1st year not being able to celebrate with her, stranded in apparently the cleanest city in Karnataka. *Sobs*

I remember last year I came down(or is it up) to Mysore and we had the time of our lives celebrating. We celebrated a day earlier at a new hotel along with her batchmates. Kinda admire their friendship, because they never miss each other's birthday celebration. Unlike mine, by the 3rd year, no one cared about anyone anymore haha. Still, thank God for the few cliques I had in India.

I recalled that day when Maxine carelessly forgot to bring Rae's bday cake. *Facepalm* In the end, I bought the doughnuts in the hotel and attempted to arrange them to a cake shape and sort of accidentally surprised everyone (not just Rae). The doughnuts looked nice but the taste was _________. No comment!

Fast forward to today. It's been a year already. To Rachel, thanks for being my listener to all my rants, and thanks for staying happy when I'm not around. I think what worried me the most when I left India was you. I was afraid you would end up finding everything dull without me. Why do I sound like I am praising myself haha.

And today, I wish you joy. A joy which springs out from your heart, a joy that assures and reassures even when things aren't doing well, a joy that brings happiness and peace to everyone you bless. And I pray that God will continue to keep the good work that was begun in you, till the day you meet the Lord face to face. (Phil 1:6)

As for now, I hope you will enjoy yourself, even though there are not many friends there, but know that you are soooo loved by these few people that God has poaced in your life, including me! I thank God everyday for you, for your life and for us.

I'm so blessed, just received an email from the Govt that I will be getting my posting by 9 Jan next year. So yeap, today is a super lucky day I must say!!! Thanks a lot Rae! You are definitely a ray of hope to me!!!

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Off day

Off days are the best! Since I started working, the days I look forward the most are Thursdays and Sundays, because these are the days where I don't have to feel humiliated.

But at the same time, probably this is what God planned for me. To strip off my pride and humble myself. In everything start from the lowest. I believe starting as an assistant (or a cleaner you can say that) will take me places. So I have no regrets, even if it takes a lot of skill and brain shaming.

I learned so much from these people and am ever grateful to my boss who took me in. Eventhough he appears to be very chinaman, but he was never stingy to share his working experiences with me. He doesn't force his viewpoints on me, rather asks me how I think and then states his viewpoint. He deserves a lot of respect. For a doctor to be this humble, he is a role model to me.

I am still not very happy working with those ladies, but I'm making better progress now in learning to ignore and speak when necessary. So if they insult me, I will shove it back to their face. An eye for an eye. Only when it is necessary, just to show them there is a line you should not cross.

Take for an example yesterday. I was asked to remove the filter from the AC. So after cleaning them, I wanted to put it back. As I was putting it back, I felt vibrations from the AC and realized that the AC was switched on. Man, that was outrageous! They did that on purpose. But hello, these kinds of things don't play play can or not, what if I get electrocuted? Or my fingers get stuck inside the AC fan? By then do you think it's funny? So I gave one of the girls a piece of my mind and asked her did she really want to get me killed. Hahaha that was the first time she looked guilty and didn't say anything. For me, that was enough.

One of the girls asked me why I always like to target the Malays and not the Indian girl. There is a Chinese saying that goes 人不犯我,我不犯人. Simply means ko tak kuang ajar dgn ak, ak takkan kuang ajar dgn ko. Learn that up malaizhu.

Bye. Bye sangat (their fav line)

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Yeap I think I now hate my job

Okay it's only a few weeks and I already got my half a month's pay! Thank God, am really happy!

I feel it's more of I endured the karenah of my colleagues to earn my salary rather than I worked for it. Well, it's true that I worked a lot, but honestly that wasn't the hard part AT ALL.

In fact nowadays I just wish to be left alone to do my work. Don't talk to me, don't ask me anything, rather order me to do things, I will gladly do it for you, even if it's washing the toilet, just don't make me answer you.

Didn't expect to come to this point that the extraverted me has chosen to hide in his tortoise shell.

These two Malay nurses can be really kurang ajar at times. The way they scold the patients after they leave, bad-mouthing the doctors, and the dirty+lame jokes they come out with have pushed me to the point where I am just so disgusted with their behavior. Worst of all, they were rejoicing when Israel was struck with fire few days back, said 'Bagus...padan muka.' Goodness is this what your religion teaches you? But Kenneth said cannot blame them cause they were educated to hate Jews since primary school days. Still...eew.

And I really hate it when they say 'study five years but can't even do simple jobs like these.' Take for example today la. Two doctors. 3 assistants. So the other two assisted the two doctors while I had to jaga counter. There were a crowd of patients today I don't know why. I had to register walk in patients, at the same time I also had to collect the patient's card and settle their payments. So suddenly a mother with two kids entered and all three wanted to get their teeth checked. So I had to search for their treatment cards. At the same time, two patients just finished their treatment and I had to get the cards from the doctor and collect money. Plus I had to arrange the date for their next appointment (ortho patients). At the same time also, two impressions came and I was asked to pour cast. So while I was discussing with the patients, mind you I only managed to search for one card out of the three, the doctor passed me another patient's CD and asked me to transfer the old OPG from the CD to the new computer. Can you see how confusing the situation was?

In the midst of the chaos, the other nurse in her impatient tone asked me to faster pour the cast, which I decided to do that later because I know I had to settle the patients first, I'm not that stupid like you malaizhu. Then the other nurse asked me to wash the instruments in the sink and sort of accused me that I was just lazying around not doing anything. Hello can you see what I'm doing here!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!

So after settling the patients' appointment I quickly went to pour the cast because anytime soon the next patient will be out and I had to settle their payment. I did it in a rush so I knew that the cast will have lots of porosities.

Obviously I got scolded with that same line I hate the most. I said sorry and then I went on to explain that I was in a rush. Then immediately they cut me and said 'then I'm not busy is it, busy sangat...'. I was mad, but I just suppressed it because I knew that I would lose the argument cause two against one.

I wish I could manage such situations better. I think I should always keep calm and carry out the important ones first. I guess I'm still very new so it came as a shock to me, so I was very confused today.

I'm just upset that the doctors treat me better than the nurses. The nurses don't pay me, why do I have to 看他们的脸色做人 (live according to how they want us to be). I just tell myself everytime, one day I may be your boss, so now boss me around all you want, just so you wait.

It annoys me also when they kept calling me Tweety bird because my lips are small and pouty. Hmph... It should be funny if others call me that, but when people that I hate say the same thing to me, it is so insulting man. The other nurse looks exactly Ursula from Little Mermaid. I really want to say it but you know girls, if insulted can cry then I die la, I'm the bad guy. And both of them put so much make up they really look like cakes to me, but not like Secret Recipe type, more like the Indian bakery type, unappetizing and cheap looking.

Kay, rant is over. I still hate you two.

Friday, November 18, 2016

Life as a DSA

It isn't so bad. Not great either.

But one thing for sure, being a dental nurse/assistant isn't easy. It not only requires precision and good memory, it also demands speed, alertness and good human relations.

This is my 3rd day here as an assistant. Most of the time I do reception work. I answer calls, fix appointments, give medicine according to prescription and be a cashier(probably the scariest).

Sometimes I will have to keep patients' bite registration casts properly, to be sent to the lab for either trial denture or fabrication.

Yet to learn: Make occlusal rims for bite registration, mixing alginate and pour casts, ortho stuffs and etc.

Usually patients come in the morning, afternoons are a little more laxed. Sometimes can be very boring and sleepy, esp after lunch. Zzzz...

The wait can be extra painful when it comes to around 4.30, most probably because I was so used to going back by 4.30 for the past five years.

We have a few doctors here, but the one in charge is Dr Lee, he's the one who hired me. He's very nice and friendly. However the others are a little more reserved. Yesterday I met Dr Chin and today Dr Tan. But they didn't talk much to me, they just hid themselves in the room (I saw them watching movie in their laptops, so shuang) until the end.

I work 5 days per week. Thursdays and Sundays are my off days. Actually right now I can't wait for Sunday already, hahaha see how much I dread working, but I sendiri cari pasal want to work so badly.

Every morning I wake up at 7.45am, have to leave by 8.30am before it gets super jammed. Yesterday I left at 8.40, oh my the jam was terrible. Reached in 40 minutes. Today I left at 8.30am, I reached at 8.45am. Seriously.